mixed up dreams

Can I just tell you that I love love love country music?? I really do. And a lot of people I know don't, especially others in chamber choir. I mean how could I possibly sing with a little country drawl when I clearly know how to enunciate my words, and have long vowels, not wide ones? So I feel kind of embarrassed when I sing country, knowing how to properly sing. But I like my "southern voice" better than singing some classical, slow ballad. Anyway, tonight I watched the CMA Awards, and seeing girls like Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, and Kellie Pickler inspired me to continue singing...

Carrie Underwood- Brought to fame from American Idol supporters (the first audition she ever had I thought she was amazing, and knew she would be my favorite all season!). She was just a farmer from Oklahoma, and now she has won Female Vocalist of the Year twice, and best single..and the horizon award..wow.

Taylor Swift- She won the Horizon award tonight, which is like saying "Welcome to country, you are a star!" and she said, "This is definitely the highlight of my senior year!" How cool is that? I mean I see the pros and cons of that for sure. I think I would regret not having an actual highschool because you were creating an album, then again, working with big stars, and getting an award wouldn't be too bad!

Kellie Pickler- She hasn't won any big awards, but she was the sixth finalist on American Idol. And she performed tonight at the CMA Awards. I think that is so cool. It just gives me encouragement to keep singing, no matter what!

Now, how realistic is it that I would ever sign a record deal? Slim to none. But it is definitely a dream of mine. Today in calculus, the boy I was sitting by (one who said I was a good singer, but he didn't like country), said, "what do you want to be? a country singer?" He said it in a mocking, no-way-on-earth that would happen. So I think it would be cool to make it big (or even make it small!) and come back to a high school reunion and look him in the eye and say, "Remember what you thought I couldn't become?" Man, I hadn't planned on ranting this long...

So as I was in the shower, I was thinking, how would I get this dream to come true? Move to Nashville? That's probably a good step, but when? Right after high school? Could I just give up going right to college, when that's what all these AP classes I am taking are for? Or would I move to Nashville after college? But by then, will I be married? Scared of taking chances? I've heard you have to live your dreams, but which ones? Because mine are:

*Country Singer (unrealistic as it may be)
*Broadcast Journalism (anchor for the news)
*wife and mother

So, I can't be all three. I guess I don't need to worry about it, but suddenly I started thinking of the future. I am sure this post is just nonsense in your eyes, but, for me tonight, it makes perfect sense. Thanks for listening...reading.